Vuelvo! ^o^That's how I feel in my life right now. (that AND a run-on sentence XD) NOTHING is going to the way I had hoped or planned, but I'm managing as always to keep my head up above the water.
My job fell through, no computer (I'm at the library), no phone (because I can't afford it), family is... well... the same... aaand... I dunno... I haven't gotten very far.
But I still have my moments when things are good, calm, and almost perfect.
The weather has been agreeable, I have loved this summer rain, I've met a couple new people, made friends with the librarian, started going to the gym for real... I'm happy when I'm busy.
Romantically... things are pretty darn... well frustrating and upsetting sometimes. I've hit a wall, but I'm going to wait at the bottom rather than scale it. I have to see if he can make it over with me. Right now, I don't think he can or is willing even... so I'm going to wait for Wales and see how it goes from there.
My problem is that I have this weird thing where if I love someone it's completely, and not in stages. It's rdiculous, dangers, foolhardy and just plain DUMB. But I can't control that part of myself, it's who I am and how I do, and what say you? Nothing, because I won't hear it.
At the same time I've come to a few points of clarity, or at least perspective and I feel better about moving on from where I am (or was). It's just difficult, I guess, knowing the things I know.
My sciatica has gotten worse in that it's full blown, 100% rather than just random pains as it was before. But at the same time, I'm doing strengthening excercises and things, and it's controllable, or at least sufferable with basic pain killers. It's not so bad, there are days i don't even need pills.
I missed you all though.
I'm glad to be back, more or less as I am dependent on the library now.
See you all around?
Love and love!
~Your Justin of the Roses
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The Silent Seraphim- So silence sings supremely, sending saddened souls soaring skyward, seeking salvation as Serendipity smiles.
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Busy is a good thing, I'm working on that. One job dow, one to go! Woohooooo
*hug*
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The Silent Seraphim- So silence sings supremely, sending saddened souls soaring skyward, seeking salvation as Serendipity smiles.
*hugs back*
Although, I hear straightjackets are coming into style with a whole plethura of neutral colours to offset the lack-of-sunlight pallid skintone of the many patients already sporting them XD
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The Silent Seraphim- So silence sings supremely, sending saddened souls soaring skyward, seeking salvation as Serendipity smiles.
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